人生方向

哎。。
什么是人生方向？
从我进mmu，我不停的问我自己？为什么我要听人的话？
难道我不能有我自己的想法吗。
(P.S. typing chinese very very tired la.)
Finally i realise,i seldom do i like to do or i do whatever people said good.
But now i am a very very lazy person,Scared doing wrong thing.May be last time i do no enough good,and i do not feel success.At secondardy school,i spend 5 years joining the society.Finally,i bcecome president.But i failed to become a good president,cant even do success in a single big event.may be i have think why i now scared become a leader.(haha...no chance to be leader in mmu bcoz got GOD = 4 flat student friends suppport behind me.)i scared people put all hope in me,but i failed them.i feeling sad too when i failed....VEry very sad until now.ALways think about why i cant did well at that event why i making the society worst.3 year liao lo....May be i dont have that fate to be succes...
Here really a good to express my feeling...
Only sadness will force me go a deep hell without re-life...
When get back my confidence?

Thanks to my gf!
always hold me while i droping...
cheer me up

Hope you get well soon ......good night..