Finally i realise the truth...

This month is the month full with assignment and test.When those thing come,i becoming lazy and more lazy...although i am lazy but i still finish the task given to me.Just i know i no trying the best of me to do the thing.i always horse horse tiget tiger doing thing.None of the thing i paid full attention and hard work to it.Edmond told me,Are u gonna juz be a normal people in ur life?My answer is yes,but finally i realise is no i wan to become a normal people,just i dun have the hard work to do anithing in my life and the most important thing is i dun have the ability to do that.
Long time ago,some people said me is a quite intelligence person.haha,quite happy with that.But the time pass,i too depend to the inteligence i had b4.the intelligence become outdated and my knowledge becoming more narrow.Finally i realise i many thing i dunno.And many thing i dunno how to solve,people ask me how this thing to be done ,i cant answer at all.No i becoming more stupid.Just the people around me becoming more hardworking.Haha,i only pay 5 mins hardwork when i see my sux final gpa out....That time i swear i will paid hard work in next sem! But the bad habit come again...My future is blur...no organise ability,no strong stand in personal opinion,what ppl said i follow...juz i dun wan use my brain to think,sked wrong desicion making..
But 1 thing i quite lucky is ...get many good best friend in MMU...everytime got thing juz refer to them...sked ler,1 day they al gone ..i got thing wan ask who lol..
I very very hate myself....sad with my behavior...
Juz around tis 2 week .....i join debate competition..i very very sux in that...dunno i sked what,i less the courage to speak out liao.....presentation of me sux...BOB presentation sux!!
I too wonder what ppl speak about me...that make me more and more sked and more bbravery to present myself....

HATE HATE HATE!!!